So now that that’s off my mind, I can ramble about more important things. I forgot other people read this thing when I do bother to update it. So… yeah.
Jinxsed is good… mods are going good…
*sighs and sits down* I wish the people online were closer to me physically. I’d kill to be able to just run over ot one of their houses and hang out. Maybe moving will be good for me. I’ll get a chance to meet more and new people like myself. Especially at an art school in web design. Hopefully drawing isn’t all that important because well… I suck.
I mean, yeah I’m ok at computer graphics manipulation and stuff but thats as far as it goes. I used to be able to draw, it just was never my thing.
Don’t worry Pookie, she really doesn’t matter to me anymore. Just remember, half my passwords are still involve her birthday. Nothing has crossed my mind to even think about her normally anymore. Him either. One day I’ll see them again and laugh because they were so truly pathetic. So so truly scared that I would come between them. If they had to be that nervous over one girl then I pity their relationship anyway. Maybe thats the emotion I have for her now. Pity. She’ll never go anywhere and never be anything and I don’t care anymore. I flip off Jerry ever time I pass his house. It’s good to get the aggression out.
Scaredy cats really. You know what the one thing I’d say to her if I saw her?
I want my stuff back bitch.
Wow… I mean, I’ve waited to move for so long, I’ve been counting down the months since I was a Sophomore in High School. But now, now it’s just so surreal that in a few short weeks I’ll have graduated from High School. In like… a month I’ll be moving to Chicago. It’s just like… wow. I can’t really believe it. I’ve never lived in a city before let alone a real one. A big one.
I just don’t want to live my days going to school, coming home, going to work and having no friends other then Jinx. I know I’ll have everyone online no matter what, but I won’t have like… Mom or even the people I occasionally hang out with anymore.
Bah. I really don’t want to go bowling today. Shauna wanted to go to the Drive In and stuff. Maybe if I’m just sneaky they won’t be able to find me. So…all ninja style I’ll hide under AIM names they don’t know and keep the phone line busy.
Woo.
Just a poem that popped in my head…
Losing you, day by day
watching as, the memories fade away
wanted to be left alone
Now I find, I’m no longer lonely…without you.
And I know, it’ll be easier tomorrow
to forget the pain, forget the sorrow
waiting to see what the future holds
I know that, I can make it…without you.
Someday, we’ll both look back
and wonder what our friendship lacked
but remember, that at least we tried
I’ll know, that I can survive…without you.
At first it seemed by world had ended
and through you, I was no longer defended,
though now I laugh, and no longer cry
I can be happy now, feel joy now…without you.
Here it is, as plain as day
I won’t regret this, though you may
You’re no longer a haunting memory
I am here, and I am living…without you.
Now I find, I’m no longer lonely…without you.
I know that, I can make it…without you.
I’ll know, that I can survive…without you.
I can be happy now, feel joy now…without you.
I am here, and I am living…without you.
