Everything my sister has ever done wrong, according to my parents way of thinking, I might as well have done or will do.

I was a good child. I didn’t do drugs, drink, get detention, skip class – nothing. And yet my parents have never trusted me further then they could throw me. They always assume that I’m going to fuck up just because my sister did.

My sister has done a lot of stupid, stupid things in her life, and at 24 she’s already borrowed more money from my parents then I care to imagine. She’s dropped out of college a few times, and it really frustrates me because it seems to be that because my sister did it, my parents assume I will even though I have never given any reason or logic to hint that I want to.

If they seriously think I’m even considering dropping out, then they don’t know me at all. When it comes to web design, I crave more that only college can provide.

My mom seems to think that even when I get out of college that I will have no money, fail to get a job, and come home where I will get a back end job that probably has nothing to do with college at all.

My parents don’t trust me and it really really hurts. I don’t think they even realize they do it.

I downright, outright REFUSE to ever live in Maine again. I won’t do it. I will not put myself through that.

And all this started last night because I want to move out from where I live right now. Seriously. They don’t listen to me – my Mom tries shouting about how I’ll have no furniture, how I’ll have no way to pay for anything, even though I patiently try to explain that we’re making sure the apartment is furnished and that my payment is still done through my loans, which includes the money I need to pay for the utilities not included. That I’ll be paying less money because we are, by far – vastly overcharged living here. My roommate and I have a studio apartment – we pay between 750 and 860 dollars a month – each.

I am so completely angry and frustrated with my parents that I don’t know what I’m going to do Thursday when I go home. My Dad’s supposed to be taking $35 out of my college funds (which is what I live on for food and everything else mind you.) to pay for the overcharges on my cell phone bill – which was talking to my parents by the way.

My parents pay for NOTHING of my college. The money I have my grandfather saved for me. I use that for food and other junk I need like books and such. My parents pay for my cell phone and for me to come home. Both of which I’m beginning to consider I don’t even want them to pay for soon.

Any time I get something new – a few books to read, a game to play – I have to ask about if I can spend my own money. My father grants me the permission to spend my money from the bank account in my name on something I want.

Oh and there is no discussing any of this with my father. He tried telling me last night that I will not be moving out and that was final. let me tell you something – it isn’t. I AM moving out of here whether he likes it or not. I’d much rather have my parents consent to it but I’m not going to let them dictate my life. I’m almost 20, I have the right to decide to move out of college sponsored housing. Oh – and my father condemned me to live here for three years you know before I ever even saw it.

My parents go beyond the – they’re just worried about you. They’re smothering, untrusting, and alienating me. I don’t even want to talk to them right now.

I’d just like to make the statement that I am the: Kickass Villan.

http://www.artificial-soul.net/test/villain/

^.^ Just checking for Randyo.