I just have like… no energy at all to do anything right now. I don’t want to talk to people, I hide under invisible on my messenger and I just have no… motivation to do anything. Everything that’s been going on lately has just been so emotionally draining for me that it’s starting to eat at my regular energy. Like, I’m fine when I’m around other people. I can lie, act happy, and for some parts, actually be happy. But later I just want to crawl up in a ball, go emo, and shut the pain away. I know that as soon as nobody is looking, the look in my eyes goes from happy to just completely broken. If I wasn’t so lazy, I’d show how dramatic the change really is. Maybe I’ll do it anyway… or not. I forgot that my CD player has the actual batteries and I’m far far too lazy to get them out, put it in and then do all the work to upload the pictures to my site and crap. I’d post something I wrote earlier today too but I really just want to take the time to go into the passworded file and get it to do it… or wait.. I think I copied it first, let’s look.
