Oh another one… lmao!!
From a H/G Fanfic:
“We have these interlocking parts and it’s absolutely absurd not to interlock them.”

Oh another one… lmao!!
From a H/G Fanfic:
“We have these interlocking parts and it’s absolutely absurd not to interlock them.”
Woo, back from Vegas! Vegas was kick-ass awesome by the way and it webt by really really fast. I of course, both gambled and drank (a little – honestly.) It seems that I was working as my Dad’s good luck charm however as whenever I was near him he’d win money. Go figure.
Oooh it’s all dark and thunderstormy outside. ^.^
I don’t really have much to say in this unless I’d be saying what I did in Vegas, but all I really did was go see a couple shows, and walk around a lot.
So I’m about to start my new quarter with some new classes like Spanish and Genre in Lit. – Sci Fi, and then the boring E-Learning II and E-Commerce. The GE one I’m on my own but should be pretty interesting, and the boring ones I have friends in so it should all turn out ok I guess.
Holly’s coming up next weekend though which should be an… interesting experiance I guess I’d say. She’ll be staying with me this time which will be kinda weird when it comes to the idea that she used to live here, you know?
Monday also starts the days when Peter and I have breaks at the same time but somehow I get the idea that he’ll be strangely MIA during it… I don’t know, knowing Peter he’ll just do something else. Comes from knowing him for a long time I guess. I suppose that’s one of the reasons why I always like vacation because during them I always mellow out more about everything involving him and get the chance to settle back more into the well, it’s just Peter sort of mood.
9 more months till I graduate. That right there is pretty terrifying because people are starting to ask me what I’m going to do or where I’m going to live after and since I really have no idea, I’m like AHHHHHH. So yeah.
I really don’t want to go back and live with my parents. Really… really don’t want to.
Ok, so this was in a book I was reading and I could help but keep it. From Educating Caronline by Patricia (Meg) Cabot.
“You know, there are a good many women in this world who would take a remark like that as a compliment.”
“Well, I am not one of them. I don’t suppose it has ever occurred to you, Mr. Granville, that being a virgin is extremely tiresome, and that having it constantly thrown up in one’s face is actually quite irritating.”
X-Posted from my Myspace
(Irony is, I was just going to make one of these when Tab posted one. o.o)
1. My favorite color is silver
2. I keep dryer sheets between the sheets on my bed so it smells like Fabreeze ![]()
3. I’m afriad that if I go back to Maine I’ll never leave and end up having the life I don’t want.
4. I have problems falling asleep without a certain pillow.
5. I <3 code red! <– Not little known, but Tab had it so it stays.
6. I feel guilty when I tell people I want to lose weight. :/
7. When I have problems telling people something I don’t want to say I have a tendency to tell them in really confusing ways.
8. I like country music. o.o
9. I wonder if I really know how to dress ‘girly’ anymore.
10. I’m left handed!
11. I hate pencils. I’m almost always writing with a blue pen by PaperMate.
12. I don’t mind walking if it’s with people I don’t see much otherwise or I have feelings for unless I’m in the mood.
13. I detest window shopping.
14. I’ve been trying to grow out my nails for 7 years. Only now have I really gotten anywhere with it.
15. I drink Mountain Dew almost as much as I drink Code Red.
16. I shower when something’s bothering me.
17. I hate it when people try to distract me while I’m reading a good book.
18. I love the sound of rain on a roof.
19. My handwriting and computer are neat because I feel like I’m a slob everywhere else.
20. I wonder if people would judge me differently if I started wearing make-up on a more common basis.
21. My favorite smell (girly-wise) is fabreeze.
22. I don’t actually use the right fingers to type the right letters on a keyboard.
23. One day I want someone to ask me to stay for them instead of just always letting me run away.
24. I’m a lot more and a lot less accepting then what I let other people think.
25. Before I die I want to see a Castle with my own eyes.
26. I’ve wondered if I wasn’t really meant to live a couple hundred years earlier.
27. I spend too much time wondering what other people think of me.
28. One of the people I instinctively want to turn to when things go wrong I don’t think would listen.
29. I barely ever take the advise I give other people.
30. I’m afraid to try new foods.
31. I collect white striped tiger stuffies.
32. I keep a written journal that I’m terrified people will read.
33. There is only one person who I will say anything to, one who I can tell almost anything but the most important thing and one who I can tell anything but the important things to.
34. I’m scared that I’ll never escape the situation I’m in right now.
35. I hate being told to shut up more then anything else in this world.
36. The easiest way to make me hate you forever is to make fun of when I cry.
37. I expect people to abandon me.
38. There’s one person who I can talk to and despite the situation the conversation is about I’ll still feel happier for just talking to them later.
39. I also can’t sleep without facing a direction of open air.
40. I keep making decisions without knowing the choice.
41. A lot of the things I do for myself aren’t really for myself.
42. My weakness is a good chick flick. ![]()
43. I’m easily angered but can be just as quickly quieted <- Same
44. I’m ashamed that I don’t fit the description of a ‘Leo’.
45. I think the words ‘I love you’ are used to much and too easily and that many people who think they’re ‘in love’ really just want to believe that they are.
46. Painting my nails makes me feel girlier.
47. I miss last year
48. I like helping people because then I actually feel useful.
49. I love cooking for other people.
50. I download music that my friends like because it reminds me of them.
Oh I am so screwed next quarter it’s not even funny. If I’m already like… Wai! now what’s it going to be like in two weeks? Maybe I’ll meet someone else and he can distract me from Peter. Oh-so-much wishful thinking there. Just… fuck. ARGH!! Am I doomed to just be stuck with feelings for him until I move, or what? This is ALLLLL Peter’s fault. All of this. If he wasn’t… him or hadn’t broken up with me (or hadn’t broken up with me like he did -_-) I wouldn’t have to worry about this. (Why do I feel the need to point out that I wouldn’t want to NOT to have feelings for him if he felt the same?) Maybe I should just get selective amnesia.
No… then he wouldn’t be my friend either and that’s stupid. Ugh. How crazy am I for doing all this and then still wanting to be friends? I should’ve turned tail and hills but… there’s just something. Despite EVERYONE under the sea (cough Zoe, Philly and eEK) telling me to just get over this boy, it’s not happening. You don’t understand, it’s not like I don’t want to. It’s just there. I’ll talk to him and then just be happier. I love and hate it.
Maybe I just need a good wack in the head.
Fate has a sick sense of humor, really. This entire quarter I see Peter for a couple of minutes here and there, right? So of course as soon as I try on getting over him again (again and again and again) I end up running into him and having dinner at Quiznos. My life is just against me, I swear. It was nice though to have a good conversation with someone who keeps up with me again though. I dunno, conversation with Holly and Peter (and sometimes Daniel I suppose) were always different because we all knew eachother well enough to know how we’d reply and take it. By the way fate, thanks for giving me a similar schedule to Peter the quarters after we broke up and not during. Really, I love that.
So what’s my strategy? Class with him two times a week next quarter plus probably the break we have between classes. I think… I’m just glad things are back to normal. Or as normal as Peter and I ever were. (Actually, now that I think of it, normally for me and Peter probably is me having one sided feelings for him) Let’s try the whole be-just-friends-with-a-straight-guy thing. My track record with this isn’t really great, but hey, doesn’t practise make perfect?
Despite all this I really am in a good mood. 10 days from ‘today’ (since it was technically the 13th already when I originally wrote this) till Vegas! Wohooo!!! Also, that’s vacation!
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Ok. Andi, you need to wake up and look at what everyone else is telling you. In fact, Peter himself told you ages ago that he was friends with all his exes. You are no different then anyone else with this. And Peter isn’t going to change. Intentionally or not he’s just going to lead you down the same road again only to have your heart break when you see once again that he doesn’t want you. Be friends. Think of him like everyone else and stop caring about his opinion so damn much. Just… stop this waiting. Because you’ll be waiting forever hunny. This is not a fairy tale, the ending isn’t going to say ‘And they lived happily ever after’ when you turn the page. Cash in on that only check you get hun – reality.
Argh. My brain is such a flip-flop that it drives me insane. One minute I’m like ‘I’m getting over you!’ then next I’m like… ‘butIloveyou.’ Even the next its’ like – ‘OMFG ARE YOU DOING BRAIN/HEART? YOU CAN’T LOVE HIM ANYMORE.’ plus, there’s always the one that just resorts to ‘Dear Lord, please save me from myself.’ My brain needs to stop. Really. I need to get over Peter and move on but it’s not happening and I hate that. I was so close for a little while! Even that day when I was with the old gang I was… doing somewhat ok. I feel like I’m this tornado spinning round and round. Once in awhile I get to the edge only to be sucked back in again. What is it about him that just keeps me stuck?
I really think that the less available he is, the easier it is for me. It’s him just being there right in front of me that hurts. Maybe I should just convince myself that he has a girlfriend. He’s practically married to Toys R Us and Maya anyway.