Ehehe… I’m so excited… I have a date! 
I’ve never actually been asked on a date before, everyone’s always just skipped that step because we were already friends. This has me really really excited! I already talked about Ricky in one of my other enties, so I won’t waste… too much of this entry on him… I almost promise.
Thursday was fun… it was Teresa, Ricky and I hanging out, just watching movies… drinking a little… (very little) and just generally being friends ^__^. Ricky crashed at my place (on the floor. 
) The next day it was Teresa/Ricky and I for most of the day pretty much doing the same thing before we went to get Teresa’s boyfriend Jim… where eventually we ended up getting a bottle of Alcohol the boys drank. Ricky… being tiny… ended up drunk… and puking… but before that we managed to get out of him that he liked me too. Followed by much much later some cuddling.
Ahahahaaa…
Yeyeyeyeeyeyeyeyyyyy!!!
Sorry for the “Dear Diary, Today I went to School…” bit to this, but you know… it is my journal of my life
Ok. So… I like someone. You should all be proud.
It’s not Peter. This entry is only about Peter for this rather short paragraph on how getting over someone is much easier when you stop forgiving all their faults.
The rest of this entry is about the new guy – Ricky. I might’ve mentioned him before, but probably not. I’ve had a “crush” on Ricky for a little while but he had a girlfriend (which he no longer has) and then he liked one of our classmates but she didn’t like him back so he got over/ is getting over her. Now let me explain something, Peter and Ricky – as different as night and day. Ricky happens to be in the same major as I do which actually means we have meaningful conversations about like… our lives, instead of just his. He’s… kinda nerdy in the way that I am, and just… cute. Also, sweet. He lent me his DS for the train trip back because he didn’t want me to get bored even though it meant he then wouldn’t have it for his own next three trips.
So I ended up spending my entire weekend with him last weekend. I was over there for a Halloween party so I stayed that night and then ended up staying the next day as well too.
Thursday night previous to all this was spent out at the bar with Teresa/Andy/Jessica/Ricky, which was fun as always and involved a 1:30am trip to McDonalds. ^__^
Plans for /this/ Thursday as well to hang out with Teresa and Ricky and then a Halloween/Birthday party on Halloween which is for one of Ricky’s friends so it’s back down there I go. Ehehee… fun.
From my Xanga:
“We are interested in others when they are interested in us.”
Ifound this when I was looking for quotes in – Interest because Irealize that I’m really losing interest in someone I’d been interestedin quickly. I think it pretty much has to do with this quote. It’s hardto have feelings for someone when they don’t have them back, or don’tshow they do.
It’s not really a bad thing this is happening…it probably could’ve happened awhile ago and I would’ve been fine withthat, but it never did because something or another was always keepingme interested. The small things that would happen before probablyhelped. Those don’t happen anymore so I’m falling into realizing thatthis person is really just becoming a friend I’m attracted to instead.
Ormaybe the small things are still happening, but they’re just not enoughanymore. I don’t know… something didn’t change though and that is theproblem.
I’m just… losing interest in Peter. I mean, like I said – I’m still attracted to him, but the lack of returned/seen interest is just like… yeah. Plus I realize how low my expectations regarding him have gotten. Which is weird, because it used to be that just the fact that I talk to him over IM like… every day now would be enough, but it’s not seeing him at all during the week when the chance is there and everything…
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That’s ok, because I think that someone I had always thought was a cutie before I’m starting to have a serious crush on… he’s funny even when he isn’t trying to be, which is what has always drawn me to people before. He’s… different, and I need different now like I need… I don’t know, to get over Peter.
I haven’t updated as much as I usually do lately because I knew how’d certain people would react, but that’s stupid because this is my journal and not saying things sort of eliminates the point. Plus I’ve always said whatever I damn well pleased in here before regardless of how other people would react, so why should I start caring now?
Anyway, things have been going good. I “apologised” to Daniel – meaning I said what I needed to say so that Peter’d get off my back about talking to him again. Last weekend Holly was up and we went to a party at Peter’s place – which was fantastic because none of the crazy things that went on involved me at all Holly and I are… fine. She made it obvious enough by saying it without saying it that she still had feelings for me, and I was just like… ‘…’ and tried to make it obvious to her without actually saying it that I still had feelings for Peter. I also blatently told her why I was resenting her back then – She was the only thing standing between me and Peter.
Don’t even ask me what’s going on with the Peter area because I really have no idea. If he knows I have feelings for him then he’s not exactly telling me to stop, but if he doesn’t then well, he’s pretty slow.
^___^ I guess I suprised him or something on how well Cow (his best friend – female) and I actually got along. Like he expected us to get along, but not like as well as we did. Thinking of it now, I don’t know, I probably trust Cow more then any other girl around Peter. Her and Peter is like Randy and I. I feel about as much threat towards her regarding Peter as I would of a Lobster and Peter. And he’s afraid of Lobsters.
There was an interesting couple of minutes when Peter and I were sharing a bed before I moved because the Canyon between us was making me sad. And I was freezing my ass off so I went to try and find a blanket.
Overall, fun fun weekend last weekend. There’s plenty of crazy pictures going around between the bunch of us two since there was like… two digital cameras and Mike and Holly have no shame about taking lots ^___^
^.^ Went to one of Peter’s parties the other day which was fun fun stuffs. Got to see everyone that I hadn’t got to see in awhile and finally see Ryan for more then a few seconds.
So there was this interesting moment that I’ve mentioned would be weird before if it every happened. Let me tell you, I was damn right. It was weird. And it kinda hurt.
Everyone took all the other beds and etc while I was at Peter’s. That left Peter and I to share a bed unless I wanted to sleep in the chair. He offered, so I finished what was left of the movie and then wandered into the same room and laid down. I managed to fall asleep for an hour before I woke up and was like :/ this sucks. What sucked was that I was allllll the way over < ------ and Peter was allllll the way over ----->. Finally I just got up and left because sharing the same bed with him without actually sharing the same bed with him – and I mean even in the like… there’s no Grand Canyon between us way – really sucked. It sucked because while we were dating and even before we actually had to share the bed to share it. I also however blame this on Ryan actually having a big bed 
.
Regardless, I was all o.O for a moment when I saw that I was labeled as ‘gf’ on his trillian. Considering he got trillian waayyy after we broke up, I was like – wtf? Especially when that was one of the only names actually renamed. It threw me for a second before I was just like… ook… lets… not… think anything of this. (However, we all know my brain and it’s still going WTF?)
Heh. The asian chicks there even mentioned Peter’s name and I was like… going to claw their eyes out. As soon as I realized this I was like – holy hell woman, he’s not yours! You have to share. I really don’t like sharing though. Especially when it comes to Peter. -_-;;;
My Lord though, either Holly REALLY didn’t understand or she plays dumb really well. Because I all but told her that I still had feelings for Peter and she was still like – Wha? When I said that if anyone looks close enough, they should be able to realize what my ‘secret’ is. She can’t be that stupid. Honestly.
More later on this…. maybe. Depends on if I think of anything good while working on my written journal
[01:42] Ricky: ok so it’s wait 50 years or suffering from a terrible head truama THEN and ONLY then will you return to Maine?
[01:42] Me: …yes.
[01:42] Me: I think that sounds about right.
