The last month… at first thought, I don’t even know where to begin. The last month has changed my life once again forever. But for once, for once thank god, it was in a wonderful fantastic way.

I graduated college!

Let me explain my last month of great things.

At Portfolio show, I won an award for most Innovative Design for my portfolio setup. 10 minutes after I got this award, I also got pulled to meet with an employeer – who wanted to set up a meeting right there on the spot. 3 days later on Monday when I went in for the interview, I got hired! $12 an hour to start – that’s with -no- professional experience and will increase over time as I rise within the company, which I am expected to do.

Ricky and I are seriously looking for apartments – to move out in November.

Ricky and I will have been together for one year November 1st!!!

Peter and I are talking again, a little. This made me nervous at first – I loved Peter for a very long time and getting over him wasn’t easy. I’ve finally admitted to myself (thanks to a disasterous night with Ricky that actually involved me asking him that if his ex-girlfriend ever said I love you and want to be with you, what would you do? With him replying, ‘I don’t know, that’d be hard to answer.’ And me freaking out very much and much apologising and confessions of love and that he would never leave me for Julia later…) that I will always love Peter. Because you always love you first love. You never forget them.

I also am very very very ocnfident that I would never ever ever ever betray Ricky with Peter or leave him for Peter. I love Ricky with all my heart, and my forever is with him.

So I am very excited to be talking to Peter again. Because I miss my old best friend. I miss him because Peter never changes, and despite that being the reason why I could never be with him, it’s exactly why he makes a terrific friend.

I’m so very excited to be getting an apartment with Ricky. Just us, for once! To have all my own stuff and do all my own things…AGAIN! Never live on your own and then don’t, because after living on your own you’ll never forget the sense of freedom there is. Ever when your parents rock (like mine and ricky’s both do) there’s a difference.