It’s been entirely too long since I updated, but such as how things go when things have been pretty good. I got a raise and sort’ve a promotion at my job, so that’s better.

I’ve been a bit sad lately, Ricky’s middle brother and his girlfriend have been fighting, and Ryan’s going through hell trying to deal with it.

I hate it when long-standing couples fight or breakup :-/
I hate it when people ask me why I want to get married. Why shouldn’t I? Do you want me to tell you lame reasons like ‘Health Insurance’? Why not? I don’t really believe in divorse, I believe that most situations should be dealt with, not run away from. Yes, I do understand it if someone becomes abusive or makes a mistake over and over again when confronted, but people divorse too easily these days and then I think they regret it later. I’ve watched my parents go through hell and survive it.

Why do I want to get married? I don’t know. It’s always been something I knew I would do one day. I don’t want to do it because ‘it means I have another hold on someone’ or something like that. I want to do it because if I love the person and I want to spend my life with them, I want to go through that momentous occasion.

I miss being complimented. I miss flirting.

I love Ricky.

Sometimes I get sad when I think of the little things that’ve vanished over the 2 years we’ve been dating, or when I hear about friends proposing and all that, but I try to remember all the good things that have happened because we’ve been dating for that long too.