Sometimes I don’t understand females at all. I think of my friends and what they’re going through and wonder ‘why do girls so often just shut off and refuse to talk about their problems?’ and then I think that sometimes, we just want to be asked. Sometimes, we try to give a sign and you just fail so completely to see it. I know a sign isn’t fair, but it’s hard. Really hard sometimes to say that something’s wrong. So sometimes, I guess I understand my gender completely.

Is it weird to miss someone you see every day? Ricky and I just have this pattern where he comes home and I’m already home and we just play our seperate videos games or watch TV and then go to bed. It’s like even though we’re together we’re not. And I don’t know how to explain that to him anymore then I already have. I’m tired of repeating myself, telling him that I want us to go out and do things!

And sometimes I get really sad. It’s March, and that’s always a miserable month for me. Good things never happen to me in those months, it’s usually when I lose friends who matter to me. March just reminds me of all the friends that have come and gone.

I miss them.