Hello journal!
So there you saw my first drunk entry in quite a long time. Also there seems to be a glitch in my livejournal app where it double posts my entries. Thanks to Claire for pointing that out to me. Not too much has been happening, just preparing for the parents. I am beyond excited to see them. 8 months is just really way too long for a family like mine that’s so close. A nice change however is being able to talk to my dad over IM. It means that I get to talk to him a lot more then just once in a great while. I hope it keeps up this way. That’s all for now really!
Hello journal! I may be just a little drunk. I live you. Sorry for double posts it’s the iPhone app nit me! I promises! Woh can’t let Phoebe get free. Pam would be sad to lose her dog. Also. You are lucky for the autocorrect it or this would be even more of am epic post. There’s totally o Bly 1 t in post.
So today started with me thinking that perhaps karma was paying me back for all those nice needs I do driving by giving me a parking spot in front of work during street cleaning. No, karma was just trying to get in good with me for what it had in store later, which I could summarize with one word. Julia.
So Ricky calls me right before lunch and explains that he’d accidently im’d her or some crap like that and then there was happiness and joy of them becoming friends again and Julia having just got out of another relationship and wanting to hang out with Ricky again.
I actually fled to dominic for help. I don’t know how to say ” no Ricky, I in fact don’t want you going even remotely near Julia, looking in her direction, or thinking about her.” I knew dnic would be able to tell me when i was being paranoid, and when I had a legitimate reason to be worried. Plus, I knew dominic would be able to tell Ricky some of the things that as a girlfriend I really can’t. Like the fact that if Ricky even hints towardsstill being in love with Julia, I’m done. I’m gone so fast that he wouldn’t even have time to blink. I refuse to forever stick around and watch their pathetic story.
More tomorrow.
So today I may have blown up on Ricky just a little bit, but I’m so tired of his BS with getting angry at me for him not knowing something that I do. Frankly it makes me feel terrible when Ricky says “see what I have to live with?” regarding me showing that I am not infact crazy by showing the article I was talking about.
It all started over nothing. I was completely kdding around with Ricky about him not having google and then he got all seriously angry at me for making him feel stupid or something. This just trigger my own fury over the situation and I finally let Ricky have it, swears over IM and all. He knows I only swear like a sailor when I’m seriously pissed so he dropped it and maybe finally got it through his head that I will never be trying to make him feel stupid intentionally. I love Ricky to death, why would I ever do that?
This is a discussion we’ve had many a time so I’m not sure if I should put any faith into it lasting awhile. Here’s hoping though that he finally got it through his thick head. Sometimes boys drive me insane.
This month has been pretty insane with plans for things to do every weekend which is both nice and exhausting because it makes me miss my nice comfy bed when I have to sleep on things like tables and couches. Nothing really significant has happened. Ricky and I have spent some time with dominic and his new gf Ashley who is nice and seemingly a lot of what dnic needs, except that something that I can’t put my finger on is off. I don’t usually have such weird feelings about things. Maybe it’s just because as ling as I’ve known dnic he was always dating Liz and now anything else just seems odd.
It’s less then three weeks now until my parents arrive and I don’t think i’ve been this excited about something since my sister told me that I was not in fact getting a super nes for Xmas like I asked for but a playstation. Were all planned out to do all sorts of things which has me excited because that means that my dad has to spend time with me doing more then just playing wow at the same time. Yes, my dad plays world of Warcraft. It’s pretty amazing actually. Not too many children can complain that their dad won’t get off wow to spend time with the family and not vice versa.
Things between Ricky and I have been pretty good still, I just don’t hold my breath about anything and then I’m not disappointed when it doesn’t happen. Ricky says that both dnic and Ryan have admitted to being jealous about us and I’m still freaked out that all of the long term relationships that my friends were in have ended. Although I see Ryan and Pam more as a temporary thing because I just can’t picture Ryan with anyone else. Though it would most likely be a good thing as pam hasn’t really proven herself to deserve Ryan, which is pretty much the opposite of wha I wouldve said once upon a time.
Hiya Journal,
Today has been one of the best kinds of days for relaxing. I opened up nearly every window in the apartment, turned on some good music and just spent the day cleaning and reading fanfiction. Nice and peaceful with nothing to think about except perhaps wondering how on earth I lose so many elastics around the apartment. I think it’s been a day that’s long been needed coming, so many kudos to the bosses at work who gave us all the nice extra long weekend. Ricky came home and we ordered dinner and watched some TV together, and now I’m back to reading some fanfics.
Sorry I haven’t gotten around to updating the journal yet with the print journal, but it could still happen soon! Now Ricky’s in the bedroom watching some Arrested Development and I’m back to his computer reading and just relaxing once more. Might watch some AMV’s soon. I blame my iPod for this, because it’s playing the “May Angels Lead You In” song and I got that originally because of a nice AMV that had Trigun and a few others in it.
Life has been going pretty nicely lately though, but I have learned to shut my mouth up about my opinion when it differs from others on facts… A “See what I have to live with?” comment from Ricky left me a bit wary as it’d been the 2nd in a couple days range along those lines. But really, I think everything else is great – My need to prove myself right (which is how he see’s it, rather then how I see it as – “Am I wrong? Because if I’m wrong I want to know. I need to know. Oh I’m right!/Wrong! Must share…”) drives him crazy. He thinks I’m essentially calling him stupid, which is silly.
But Ricky being called “stupid” is very close to my “shut up” so I try and not go there much… everyone has the one thing that’ll set them off, even in joking.
There’s been some talk of ring sizes and money saving lately, which I try not to let get to me too much… just because there’s talk doesn’t mean anything’s happening, and even if it does, doesn’t say that it’s going to be happening anytime soon. I’m a rather large pessimist on that fact.
Ricky and I finally made it a year without nearly breaking up over Julia though, which is definitely a record on our part. This might be partly due to the fact that Ricky doesn’t even talk to Julia, and has finally seem to have seen the pain of death he’d suffer if he put me through that again.
