Dearest Journal,

Today has been a rather uneventful day. Dominic and Ashley are over, but it’s more… awkward? then anything. They went to bed at like 10, and Ricky was a sourpuss all night because “I don’t have anything planned. There’s nothing for us to do.” Apparently Ricky has forgotten how to just hang out with friends. It was super weird. And I don’t do well in those situations, so I just planned my Sims 3 really…

Mom and Dad will be here in less then a week now, and I really couldn’t possibly be more excited then I am. I can’t wait to see them, and to go out and do all sorts of things with them. It’s going to be such a blast and definitely one of the best birthdays ever. Breakfast, followed by seeing Half-Blood Prince in IMAX, followed by lunch, and then a trip to the Harry Potter museum. Nothing could be better then that really. I miss my parents soooooo much.

Although, I feel like my Mom and I are drifting apart again. It just seems like whenever she has Shauna around, she barely (which I know isn’t true) seems to care about talking to me at all. She hasn’t even been saying ‘I love you’ on the phone lately. It’s just making me a bit sad… On another note though, is that as-always, the further apart my Mom and I grow, the closer my Dad and I do. I’ve been talking to him a lot lately on AIM, just about the trip, and Shauna, and needing to get a new computer… anything.

My sister, as always drives me insane. She IM’s me the other day looking for $700. Seriously? 1) I am poor. I don’t have that kind of cash just laying around. 2) SRSLY? She never paid me back the $200 she owed me, and now she expects me to give her $700? 3) NO FUCKING WAY. My sister is the most irresponsible inconsiderate person I have ever met. Apparently she’s changing jobs AGAIN. Ernie quit his job, and she is once more living with my parents for an undisclosed amount of time. I mean, are you kidding me? She’ll be 29 in Janurary and she can’t even pay her bills enough that she doesn’t lose her house. I just can’t fucking believe her. And then she doesn’t even want to fork over $200 a month to my Dad for rent? She’s impossible. Maybe she should stop blowing her money and screwing my Dad over. Because it’s not like my poor Dad can say no with everyone else gaining up on him. Seriously, I know it’s hard, but Shauna needs to learn that our parents aren’t made out of money. Half their financial problems are due to her, and then she bitches whenever they want to go on a vacation? I don’t even want to hear it from her anymore. She fails. Fails so hard. And her little sister is not going to bail her out of all her problems.

Anyone who knows me AT ALL, knows I had utterly ridiculous student loans. I pay $860 a month to my loans. Does my sister a) Not know this? or b) expect me to skip the payment for a month for her? because either option does not prove well for her. I am not going to mess with my loans and have a late payment on a bill, which I NEVER HAVE, because of her. And if she doesn’t realize that I don’t even have the money for that kind of thing, she has no business in asking me for that much money to begin with. I’m not sure even my parents realize just how much money I fork over a month to those loans. At least my Dad apologized for it, that’s a lot more then I can say for my Mom who never even attempted to help me with anything unless I begged Dad to force her to. She didn’t even want to sign my consolidation loan.

I love my Mom, and I love my sister, but sometimes, I just can’t deal with them.