*waves at people*

Err… that’s it? I went to class, talked to Brian, talked to Randy…yeah… *shrugs* talked to my Daddy? ^.^ He got me chocolate covered cherries. Cause… Dad rocks.

Okie, so Andi here is sad. I miss home. I get to go home in like…just under 3 weeks, but I really can’t wait cause…I miss my family and Brian lots. And my phone died when Brian called me the other day and then I called back and her hasn’t called back and now I’m sad. I miss Brian.

Thanksgivinig was lotsa fun! Not quite the same though. No corn!! Or cranberry sauce!! @.@ Blasphemy in me family! But it was funnn! (Madelin has really long arms. @.@ You shoulda seen her go after that chocolate…)

I missed my internet!!! I had like 70 emails when I get home..hehe…

I have classes tomorrow…icky…and I WANNA TALK TO BRIAN!

And I want my Mommy and Daddy. And my sister too I think. And my dog. @.@

I wanna go hoooooommmmeeee!! Daddy promised me that next year for Turkey day, I’m coming home. And I’m sure I’ll appreciate that. I wish I coulda this year though. But I had fun with my adopted Turkey day toooooo.

But yeah. I miss Brian. He sucks because he needs to call me back so I stop wondering if he’s upset with me or if he has a girlfriend. Cause that would make me sad.er.

-Andio.

And now for the other entry!

Ok, so yeah. I really do miss my family, but I did have a lot of fun with Madelin the Moose. We got to do lotsa fun things, and I met her friends and everything. All in all, it really was a lot of fun, but I do wish I could’ve gone home. Thanksgiving Dinner just isn’t the same when it’s not with your own family. So if there’s anyone else out there who didn’t get too, I feel you pain! I do have classes tomorrow, and it is already 3am, but whatever. I don’t really feel like going, but I think that’s because I just got off a mini-vacation.

What’s really weird is that when I’m here, I want to be home, but when I’m home I want to be here. I want to bring Brian here really, cause that would just rock. Holly goes home to much to really be someone I can completely spill to, so she has like a double life, and Daniel….well, Daniel’s just Daniel. ‘Sides, nobody else can predict me as well as Brian can, and he’s the only person who can sucessfully spoil me without me really feeling guilty. I dunno how he does it really, but right now I just miss him. He needs to be here so I can just flop on the other side of the couch from him, watch a movie, eat my favorite food, and talk. Because for some reason, I can talk and talk and Brian just has the answer that makes it allll go away. He rocks like that.

Mm…text messages…I still get a guilty feeling whenever sending them though…like…I shouldn’t or something…which is why Randyo rocks!!!! Cause he gets free txts too, so he replies as well, and I can send lots and lots and not feel bad at all, cause he’s like me and loves gettin em! ^.~! E-hug to my favorite Randyo! Who is like a Brian on a different lvl. Randyo rocks my socks off too, and he should move here too.

Anyway, now that I’ve wrote a journal entry where there is an actual intelligence level appearing, I’m going to go see how everyone else is doing, and then go to bed.

-Andi

So yeah here’s the interesting part. On the way home I was tired. When I’m tired I get cuddley.

I was sitting with Brian.

So yeah, I ended up like… in his lap. I was snuggled under his arm with both my legs over one of his like the whole way back. Probably not the best idea considering Brian still cares a lot about me and I’m moving, but I wanted to. I knew what I was doing and htat I’d regret it later, but I needed to. And damn, Brian is comfy.

Got my most embarassing moment read out loud to my entire class, but hey I lived. I wasn’t really that upset, especially when I didn’t describe it on the paper very much and I wrote it a good 5 years ago. Maybe it was cause whoever the hell had my paper almost didn’t read it that I didn’t kill him. He’s lucky. I probably got revenge during four square anyway, I took out like everyone in my class at least once.

It was fun though. Pretty much told Jinx to screw off at one point. She informed me that “You haven’t been all that pleasant to be around for the last two weeks.” Aka, I’ve been refusing to cart her damn ass around whenever she wants to go somewhere and I told her I wasn’t giving her a ride this week.

She has no idea of the concept of not having money. And she never will. I hate that.

So yeah. Hanging out with Brian because I only have like a week left of my life to spend with him.

Oh and apparently Jinx doesn’t think she can live with me.

Big suprise there, I’ve only been saying that for like the last 6 months, but whatever you bitch. I’m just not putting up with her shit anymore. I don’t have to. And I’m going to live with her for one trimester, then move out. She’s been trying to tell me what I can and can’t bring when me move. Screw her, I’m bringing whatever the hell I want. And -she- is not using my crap if she doesn’t bring her own. No means no.

I want my server back damn it. I miss my website, but money hasn’t been exactly flowing lately and I don’t want to push Dad about it, but he gets payed tomorrow, so I’ll ask him about it again then I guess.

Whatever, this is good enough.

Would you get along with a girl who said that you tried to drown her in 2nd grade? Or even -gasp- shoved her off the monkey bars in fifth? I’m serious here people.

She was like all moody about it. Yes Jinx, because I have just so many friends that I never spend any with you. *rolls eyes*

I actually look forward to gold days now, I can’t wait to have a web design class where I actually *learn* something again! And seeing as I have no idea how to use frontpage either, that will be fun as well!

Yes. I am a freak. But at least I have a passion for my career of choice alright? Would you rather hear me being excited about that or bitching that I’m some 55 year old woman working at Rite Aid?

Yeah, that’s what I thought.

I love my reviewers. I know all my friends just kinda shake their heads and blow me off about it, by my fanfictions are my own way of dealing with my issues. ^^; Oddly I’ve been getting originality comments. I love getting reviews because I get that warm mushy feeling, and everyone loves my odd writing style.

I’m still worried about Dusty though…

Overall, today was good. And it still is because I have like…four more hours of being awake. Trust me, I dread nothing more then *shudders* having a set time to wake up. I can’t wait till I’m a freelance web designer and just go to work (probably across the hallway) as soon as I feel like waking up. Ahh, that’ll be the life.

Yeah, you’re really thinking that the physco lady might have a good idea after all now aren’t you? Ha. It’s all mine. Only scary physco people like me who drool at the words of like CSS and Iframes are allowed in this business, and maybe a Pookie or two.

Bah. Lol. Nobody reads my journal anyway. ^^;

-Andi

Oh Allie. I know most times you’re the only person who reads this. Probably the only person who cares about my personal life enough too. My biggest fear – my big big fear is…being forgotten. I don’t want to live life and never be known for anything. Honestly, conceitedness and self-centeredness of it all – that’s one of the larger reasons why I try to run a web site.

I’m so tired of being depressed, so tired of being needy. I wish I could just give myself a quick kick in the ass and be my real self again. But it’s so hard when I feel like even Jinx takes me for granted. Sometimes I wonder if she even wants me at the same college as her. I have a lot of underlying feelings that I’m just unwanted in everything I do. I changed my schedule today because I knew right off that Jinx wasn’t even going to recognize I was there. So I edited my schedule and set it up so that my independent study was with one of the teachers I like, at the same time as Brian’s class. Brian is good people. I like him a lot. It was a rather nice boost to my same ego when he said; “Now I know why Jinx hangs out with you, it’s a lot of fun.” but when I said that to Jinx she’s like…No, that’s not why. Sometimes she can be a really big bitch without realizing it at all. Yesterday I was like…trapped into taking her grocery shopping, I basically had said in every way possible without directly saying it that I didn’t want to. “I have no gas Jinx. None.” I dropped her off at her house, and left. “Just call me later or whatever.” she calls me in an hour; “Just let me fucking wake up.” And then when I was promised lunch, she wanted to make it Chinese. Ok, I don’t like Chinese food. Hell honestly, I like a rather odd combination of food. But it just pissed me off because she knows I don’t like it. In the grocery store I just followed her around with the cart. I don’t even like shopping when there’s no benefit for me – I’m just one of those people. I can’t stand window shopping. She was trying to yell at my for playing on the cart too. And *gasp* I laid on the back of the damn chair.

Everything was just leading to one really pissed off Andi. I don’t know if she’s honestly getting jealous that I’m spending time with Brian or not, but I rather like having two friends. Brian’s getting tired of hanging out with the same people day after day and really, so am I. It’s just the same thing day after day and college seems so far and so close at the same time. Ok – Brian may not be the most handsome guy in the world, but he’s a sweetheart. ^^; Though you’d have to know him to understand that I think. I kinda do want to go to prom with him – he doesn’t have a date, I don’t have a date, he’s he’s the one pushing me to ask someone. (And just plain go for that matter.) He says he likes someone I know rather well, and it’s not Jinx. That sadly, does eliminate a lot of people. And I’m really glad it’s not Jinx. She was like…”Thank God.” when I told her it wasn’t him. For someone who’s beginning to like the kid…that stings. I wanted to smack her right there in the car. She’s so vain. The only people she really likes are pretty boys.

>.< I probably shouldn’t be talking about one of my only friends like that but…I needed to get it all off my chest. Sometime there’s only so much you can take and I passed that point a month ago. I wonder half the time if we only hang out because neither of us has anything better to do. So I like hanging out with Brian. It gives me something better to do.

But I guess I am finally moving on…a little. I still miss Jerry a lot though – as a best friend. He said before that he comes in to see Sturk a lot and now that I have him, maybe I’ll get a chance to see Jerry and at least talk to him one last time. The last time I saw him was so…unresolved.

I guess that’s it.

-Andi