Name Four Bad Habits You Have:

• procrastinating
• underestimating myself
• being mistrustful of people
• getting angry easily.

(in 6 years, this didn’t really change. ((Although, it’s not as bad as it used to be, by far.)) )

Name Four Things That You Wish You Had:

• Walls I could paint
• Enough money to pay off my student loans
• A back yard
• Matching furniture

Name Four Scents You Love:

• vanilla
• cherry
• Aussie hair shampoo.
• febreeze

Name Four People That Know You the Best:

• Ricky
• Shauna
• My Mom
• Round Lake peeps?

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now:

• Why that previous question always makes me emo
• Carrots
• Oooh, I still have some Code Red Left
• Pocky/ACEN

Name Four Things That You Have Done Today:

• Beat Dragon Age again
• Worked on my site
• Got dressed
• ….woke up?

Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:

• New Clothes
• Groceries
• Dragon Age DLC
• More music on iTunes… it’s like crack.

Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:

• Code Red
• Chai Tea
• Capri Suns
• Hot Cocoa

First Grade Teacher’s Name?

• Mrs. Bosworth

Last Words You Said

• Sherlock Holmes

Last Song You Sang?

• Love Story – Taylor Swift

Last Person You Hugged?

• Ricky?

Last Thing You Laughed At?

• Ricky

Last Time You Cried?

• Prolly whenever I fought with Ricky last.

What’s In Your CD Player?

• Dragon Age

What Color Socks Are You Wearing?

• I don’t wear socks.

What’s Under Your Bed?

• Dust bunnies?

What Time Did You Wake Up Today?

• 11:02

Current Taste?

• Baby Carrots (That question earlier makes a lot more sense now, doesn’t it?)

Current Hair?

• Half Black, Half Red – the Front half is black and longer, and the back half is red and shorter.

Current Clothes?

• My Hey Monday band shirt, and pj’s Ricky’s Mom gave me for xmas one year.

Current Annoyance?

• The effort required to keep my laptop and desktop music synced together

Current Longing?

• Dinner to cook itself.

Current Desktop Picture?

• This scenic picture of mountains… it’s hard to explain, but it’s night time and there’s a comet.

Current Worry?

• monies

Current Hate?

• Sallie Mae

Current Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex?

• Eyes/hair

Last CD You Bought?

• Merlin Season 2 Soundtrack / Sherlock Holmes Soundtrack / LPO Plays Disney

Favorite Place To Be?

• Cuddled with Ricky in our apt.

Least Favorite Place?

• Anywhere alone.

Time You Wake Up In The Morning?

• 8:29 / 9:30-10:30 weekends

If You Could Play An Instrument?

• Piccolo

Favorite Color?

• silver & purple

Do You Believe In An Afterlife?

• Not really. More of a reincarnation kind of person

How Tall Are You?

• 5′4″

Current Favorite Word/Saying?

Favorite Season?

• Spring! I love it outside.

Favorite Day?

• Saturday

Where Would You Like To Go?

• Japan. England.

What Is Your Career Going To Be Like?

• What it already is! YEY WEB DESIGN!

How Many Kids Do You Want?

• Two unless they come in sets.

Favorite Car?

• Sirius…I’ll love you forever. (But I <3 SUV’s.)

Name Four Things That You Wish You Had:
More Friends
More confidence
activities to do
ways to see my parents

Name Four Scents You Love:
vanilla
cherry
Aussie hair shampoo.
febreeze

Name Four People That Know You the Best:
Ricky…………..
Shauna
My Mom
Probably Erin at work…

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now:
Brownies
Work
Friends
What happens if…

Name Four Things That You Have Done Today:
Missed people.
Made brownies
worked
watched Grey’s Anatomy

Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:
Wendy’s
Groceries
Okami
Lost Odyssey?

Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
Green Tea
Mountain Dew
Code Red
Dr. Pepper

First Grade Teacher’s Name?
Mrs. Bosworth

Last Words You Said
See you tomorrow Erin

Last Song You Sang?
Curse of Curves

Last Person You Hugged?
Ricky

Last Thing You Laughed At?
Me saying Those brownies are for work, don’t eat them.

Last Time You Cried?
Uhhhhhhhhh probably the last time Ricky and I fought.

What’s In Your CD Player?
hell if I know.

What Color Socks Are You Wearing?
I don’t wear socks.

What’s Under Your Bed?
random socks most likely.

What Time Did You Wake Up Today?
8:17… 4 years later, I still believe in waking up at random minutes.

Current Taste?
Quiznos?

Current Hair?
Brown-blonde

Current Clothes?
St. Thomas T-Shirt from the last cruise, favorite pants.

Current Annoyance?
Ricky’s job holding him hostage all the time.

Current Longing?
my boyfriend.

Current Desktop Picture?
mario level 3-3… it changes to the next level every friday.

Current Worry?
am i really that pathetic that I don’t have my own friends?

Current Hate?
being emo….

Current Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex?
Eyes.

Last CD You Bought?
I buy random songs from iTunes…

Favorite Place To Be?
Cuddled with Ricky.

Least Favorite Place?
Anywhere alone.

Time You Wake Up In The Morning?
8:17 / around 10:30

If You Could Play An Instrument?
Drums.

Favorite Color?
silver & purple

Do You Believe In An Afterlife?
no. Reincarnation all the way.

How Tall Are You?
5’5″

Current Favorite Word/Saying?
Mmm.

Favorite Season?
Spring.

Favorite Day?
Saturday

Where Would You Like To Go?
Japan. England.

What Is Your Career Going To Be Like?
Web Design!

How Many Kids Do You Want?
Two unless they come in sets.

Favorite Car?
Sirius…I’ll love you forever.

My Personality

Neuroticism	40
Extraversion	57
Openness To Experience	81
Agreeableness	11
Conscientiousness	7

(Irony is, I was just going to make one of these when Tab posted one. o.o)

1. My favorite color is silver
2. I keep dryer sheets between the sheets on my bed so it smells like Fabreeze
3. I’m afriad that if I go back to Maine I’ll never leave and end up having the life I don’t want.
4. I have problems falling asleep without a certain pillow.
5. I <3 code red! <– Not little known, but Tab had it so it stays.
6. I feel guilty when I tell people I want to lose weight. :/
7. When I have problems telling people something I don’t want to say I have a tendency to tell them in really confusing ways.
8. I like country music. o.o
9. I wonder if I really know how to dress ‘girly’ anymore.
10. I’m left handed!
11. I hate pencils. I’m almost always writing with a blue pen by PaperMate.
12. I don’t mind walking if it’s with people I don’t see much otherwise or I have feelings for unless I’m in the mood.
13. I detest window shopping.
14. I’ve been trying to grow out my nails for 7 years. Only now have I really gotten anywhere with it.
15. I drink Mountain Dew almost as much as I drink Code Red.
16. I shower when something’s bothering me.
17. I hate it when people try to distract me while I’m reading a good book.
18. I love the sound of rain on a roof.
19. My handwriting and computer are neat because I feel like I’m a slob everywhere else.
20. I wonder if people would judge me differently if I started wearing make-up on a more common basis.
21. My favorite smell (girly-wise) is fabreeze.
22. I don’t actually use the right fingers to type the right letters on a keyboard.
23. One day I want someone to ask me to stay for them instead of just always letting me run away.
24. I’m a lot more and a lot less accepting then what I let other people think.
25. Before I die I want to see a Castle with my own eyes.
26. I’ve wondered if I wasn’t really meant to live a couple hundred years earlier.
27. I spend too much time wondering what other people think of me.
28. One of the people I instinctively want to turn to when things go wrong I don’t think would listen.
29. I barely ever take the advise I give other people.
30. I’m afraid to try new foods.
31. I collect white striped tiger stuffies.
32. I keep a written journal that I’m terrified people will read.
33. There is only one person who I will say anything to, one who I can tell almost anything but the most important thing and one who I can tell anything but the important things to.
34. I’m scared that I’ll never escape the situation I’m in right now.
35. I hate being told to shut up more then anything else in this world.
36. The easiest way to make me hate you forever is to make fun of when I cry.
37. I expect people to abandon me.
38. There’s one person who I can talk to and despite the situation the conversation is about I’ll still feel happier for just talking to them later.
39. I also can’t sleep without facing a direction of open air.
40. I keep making decisions without knowing the choice.
41. A lot of the things I do for myself aren’t really for myself.
42. My weakness is a good chick flick.
43. I’m easily angered but can be just as quickly quieted <- Same
44. I’m ashamed that I don’t fit the description of a ‘Leo’.
45. I think the words ‘I love you’ are used to much and too easily and that many people who think they’re ‘in love’ really just want to believe that they are.
46. Painting my nails makes me feel girlier.
47. I miss last year
48. I like helping people because then I actually feel useful.
49. I love cooking for other people.
50. I download music that my friends like because it reminds me of them.

(Taken from Dusty)

Swing, Swing – The All-American Rejects
Dance, Dance – Fallout Boy
The Gift – Seether
Smile Like You Mean It – The Killers
Move – Thousand Foot Krutch
Disconnected (Out of Touch) – Trapt
Somebody Told Me – The Killers

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http://kevan.org/johari?name=gtg

And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who’s gonna catch me when I fall
When the show is over
And it’s empty every where
It’s hard to face going back alone
So I walk around the city
Anything, anything to clear my head
I’ve got nowhere to go nowhere but home
Who will be the one who’s there

And not ashamed to see me crawl
Who’s gonna catch me when I fall
It may seem I have everything
But everything means nothing
When the ride that you’ve been on
That you’re coming off
Leaves you feeling lost
Is anybody out there
Does anybody see

That sometimes loneliness is just a part of me

This song is really pretty, Ashlee Simpson or no Ashlee Simpson. Actually I like her singing.

In 2005, you bummed everyone out. Like you care.

Hmm, yesterday I was all emo because I was like, “Wah, I’m alone.” Well, regardless that it’s still true I can at least realize that people actually see me for me. I suppose this comes from the conversation I had with Peter yesterday about Holly and everything else going on. He was angsting about everything going on and the irony that the people he had believed he’d opened up most to believed he was skin deep.

I haven’t changed my mind about him being skin deep, because there are a a lot of time when he is, but I do feel bad about it. I wasn’t going to lie to him though when he asked me if I knew who Holly was saying was skin deep. I mean… just no. I don’t like lying.

Nyeh, Hi Zoe! <3 Zoe is my currentest hero for having ninja-like speed in the journal-readingness.

T_T I did not love a white Zen!!!