Still have to figure out what to get Ricky for the 3 year anniversary. Though I think I may have it at least partially figured out. He’ll love it . Three years is craziness! That’s such a long time and it doesn’t even feel like it’s been that long. Heck, two years ago right now I was graduating from college. My 2 year anniversary at orbit is October 2nd. Man time flies as you get older. I seriously keep forgetting that I’m 24. It feels like I should still be in college. But I’m In a good place right now and I think it will only keep getting better with time. I’m happy enough . I have my paranoid and freaked out moments, but who doesn’t?

Anyway, my vow to not mention anything about weddings or rings to Ricky definitely returned with a comment I heard from dominic. I don’t even know what the hell to expect from Ricky anymore. First it was happening eventually, and now he’s freaking out or something? Agh. Whatever. I don’t expect anything when it comes to Ricky and definite plans on our futures actually. I mean, on November 1st we’ll have been living together for 2 years. That was the last step we took in our relationship together. I feel like now is the time to at least take a vacation with just each other at least. AT LEAST!

So there you saw my first drunk entry in quite a long time. Also there seems to be a glitch in my livejournal app where it double posts my entries. Thanks to Claire for pointing that out to me. Not too much has been happening, just preparing for the parents. I am beyond excited to see them. 8 months is just really way too long for a family like mine that’s so close. A nice change however is being able to talk to my dad over IM. It means that I get to talk to him a lot more then just once in a great while. I hope it keeps up this way. That’s all for now really!

So Ricky calls me right before lunch and explains that he’d accidently im’d her or some crap like that and then there was happiness and joy of them becoming friends again and Julia having just got out of another relationship and wanting to hang out with Ricky again.

I actually fled to dominic for help. I don’t know how to say ” no Ricky, I in fact don’t want you going even remotely near Julia, looking in her direction, or thinking about her.” I knew dnic would be able to tell me when i was being paranoid, and when I had a legitimate reason to be worried. Plus, I knew dominic would be able to tell Ricky some of the things that as a girlfriend I really can’t. Like the fact that if Ricky even hints towardsstill being in love with Julia, I’m done. I’m gone so fast that he wouldn’t even have time to blink. I refuse to forever stick around and watch their pathetic story.

More tomorrow.

It all started over nothing. I was completely kdding around with Ricky about him not having google and then he got all seriously angry at me for making him feel stupid or something. This just trigger my own fury over the situation and I finally let Ricky have it, swears over IM and all. He knows I only swear like a sailor when I’m seriously pissed so he dropped it and maybe finally got it through his head that I will never be trying to make him feel stupid intentionally. I love Ricky to death, why would I ever do that?

This is a discussion we’ve had many a time so I’m not sure if I should put any faith into it lasting awhile. Here’s hoping though that he finally got it through his thick head. Sometimes boys drive me insane.

It’s less then three weeks now until my parents arrive and I don’t think i’ve been this excited about something since my sister told me that I was not in fact getting a super nes for Xmas like I asked for but a playstation. Were all planned out to do all sorts of things which has me excited because that means that my dad has to spend time with me doing more then just playing wow at the same time. Yes, my dad plays world of Warcraft. It’s pretty amazing actually. Not too many children can complain that their dad won’t get off wow to spend time with the family and not vice versa.

Things between Ricky and I have been pretty good still, I just don’t hold my breath about anything and then I’m not disappointed when it doesn’t happen. Ricky says that both dnic and Ryan have admitted to being jealous about us and I’m still freaked out that all of the long term relationships that my friends were in have ended. Although I see Ryan and Pam more as a temporary thing because I just can’t picture Ryan with anyone else. Though it would most likely be a good thing as pam hasn’t really proven herself to deserve Ryan, which is pretty much the opposite of wha I wouldve said once upon a time.